"I breathe more easily, now that I have become accustomed to freedom, but at the same time, everything that catches my attention makes me unbearably angry. And I am angry also with myself. I feel excruciatingly ashamed of what I have done up to now. I have fallen into a state of not wanting to write anything"
~ Entry for October 23, 1945, in Takami Jun nikki, vol.6, p.19